I'm Just Ready.

I'm just ready. I'm just ready to have Luke. I'm ready for him to be here in our arms, healthy. I am ready to hear his first cry to know his lungs are strong. I can't wait to see his little face for the first time and fall in love. Like I did with his sister when she was born. I also can't wait to see what Bobby's reaction is going to be when he sees Lucas for the first time. Is he going to cry? Smile? Both? What will both our moms do? I know if I cry, my mom will and then Bobby's mom Genella will follow right behind her. I also wonder how Raven will react when she sees Luke for the first time. She won't be able to see both of us while we're in the hospital. It's flu season and hospital policy says kids can't be in the maternity ward. I feel it's a little unfair but I understand. I also am curious to see everyone else's reactions to Luke like my dad, brother and Braydonn. He's been calling Luke by the name of Darth Vader. It's funny. 

In addition to all this, I'm tired. Tired of waiting. Tired of carrying around what feels like a bowling ball for a stomach. Tired of being out of breath. Tired of eating all the time. Tired of all the other multitudes of symptoms and problems that come with pregnancy. This is only my second one and it's been the longest one. I guess the reason why I'm so tired is because I'm so ready. 

Tomorrow morning, Bobby and I have to be up at the hospital at 5:30 am and his mother is going to follow behind us there. After midnight tonight, I can't eat anything but I'm going to drink water to stay hydrated. 

Today, I got Raven ready to go over to my parents house where she'll stay until we come home from the hospital. She's got enough clothes, toys, movies and other stuff to last her a little while. This whole past week, we've spent as much quality time together as possible and I know I've enjoyed it. She's been so sweet and loving on us especially me but I'm not complaining. Other than acting bad today, she's only been having an attitude every now and again. She's been listening to me pretty well and a great helper. I'm going to miss her while I'm in the hospital. I know I can talk to her on the phone and through Face Time on Bobby's phone but it's not the same.

I'm nervous because I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. I don't know how things are going to pan out so I'm just gonna go with it and be as positive as possible. Best case scenario with this inducement; I do good and have him naturally like I'd like to do. Worst case scenario; I have to be put to sleep for them to perform a C-section. Either way, I'm hoping for the best.

So with that being said, I know I've only started writing this blog but this might be the last one I'm able to write for a while. I'm still going to try a write one when I can but who knows when that moment will arrive.

Wish me luck. I'm looking forward to what the future holds. I hope you all have a good day.

Until next time.