Oh, goodness gracious!! Today was one of those chaotic days. Usually I can handle juggling things around, take care of the kids plus have some fun.
But..... it felt like I kept hitting very ending, oncoming brick walls. Just got one thing done; Someone isn't listening. Got another thing done; there's a mess to clean up where I just finished cleaning. And yes, I got everything taken care of or done. But I also feel like I could've raised my voice less. You know those days where you felt a little guilty for having to being extra stern with your kids. Where you feel like your yelling at them or saying no too much. But they were really pushing buttons and boundaries like it was no tomorrow. So you had to say "No" a lot or put them in time out multiple times.
Potty training Luke is getting better in some ways. He fights a little bit to actually walk to the bathroom but is completely okay once he sits down. He'll even flush when he's done. Whether he did anything or not. It's funny. Raven's been misbehaving a lot. I'm not going to go into it but I'm done being a passive parent. I'm making sure I let her know what she's doing wrong and what the consequences are for it. The two little ones don't even misbehave as much as she does. Their bad days are few and far in between.
It really helps that I don't have to do it alone. Bobby and I are working hard as a team. We also have a never ending support from his mom and family too. I'm so grateful and appreciative of their help.
I'm glad that I'm not the angry emotional train wreck I was in 2020. Makes me shudder just thinking about it. I feel I'm definitely in a better state of mind and emotions wise, everything doesn't feel so heavy. Like I can carry my own weight around.
I take one every day one day at a time. At the same time I'm focusing on what I can control in the present and have hope for the future. In a little over a month, we'll be going to Myrtle Beach and I'm so looking forward to it. I know we all are.
Even with this pandemic going on, things feel like they're slowly getting back to normal. I'm also excited that Bobby and I are getting closer to being able to get a house. I can't wait. Constantly on the lookout for properties.
We both just want better. A better life and better things for our family.
Well that's all for now. A shorter blog for me but that's my update.
Until next time....
